A Mother in Love’s Name Only

My mother loved me, and she still loves me. I used to question that, but then too I used to think that ‘Love’, especially the familial sort, included having responsibilities to a person; I’ve realised since that love is just an emotion. A powerful emotion, but not one that carries a contractual agreement. Between me…

Socially Weird Behaviour?

Let’s talk about a subset of behaviours which are considered weird and sometimes due to their oddity are called ‘socially unacceptable’ but which aren’t inherently harmful or dangerous to anyone else; specifically I’m talking about stimming. For those who aren’t familiar, stimming is the word for repetitive sensory stimulating behaviours, such as: bouncing your leg,…

Staring at the Blue

Do you ever have those moments where you overlooked something so obvious that you want to just look in the mirror and facepalm at yourself? I do. I try very hard to be observant to compensate for some of my disabilities, but try though I might I can be very oblivious at times. So here’s…

The 15 minutes [my brain on disordered eating]

Disordered eating is really disordered thinking-about-eating, and it is an awful thing for those who have it, but for me personally it is far from my biggest struggle; poverty has made most of my food choices for me, and my other mental health problems vastly out-shadow it. Still, it is a struggle, and I notice…

Kindness kindles a kerfuffle…

Silence is something I tend towards, but very often empathy is my driving factor towards trying to speak to others. So it’s rather painful for me when this backfires heartily and my empathy is instead interpreted as condescension. I don’t know how to avoid this, and I’m too socially inept to know how to navigate…

The assailable Greysexual

Today I want to write about identity, and how expressing it can be impeded by stereotypes. Specifically I am writing this post for The August Carnival of Aces, on the topic of “The Unassailable Asexual”. (If you don’t know what an asexual is click here. Ace is another term for asexual. FYI people who regularly…