Yosh! Welcome; this is my “anxiety-blog”.
Wherein I intend to nervously ‘scribble’ my thoughts, especially the ones which pertain to mental health…. It may well end up being filled with everything else from my life. Just as my anxiety spills into every aspect of my life, the rest of my life sloshes over the bounds and flows into my thoughts about my anxiety.
Focusing on mental health, also means looking at mental wellness, and that means not discounting everything I enjoy in my life which helps to make me more well.
My varieties of madness:
Anxiety (generalized, social, & panic disorder [+ Agoraphobia]), Attention Deficit Disorder, life-long history of depression, Insomnia/’difficulties sleeping’, Obsessive Compulsive Disorder, sensory-processing issues, also non-neurotypical by all practical measures
I feel like with all the troubles they cause me this feels like it should be a much bigger laundry list (and maybe I am forgetting something, or will be diagnosed with something else later on, who knows) but there it is, in all it’s ‘glory’.
I’m also a synesthete (emotion–>colour, and colour–>emotion, visual–>texture sensation, and some visual–>spatial) — I’m more of an associator when it comes to both the colours and textures (unless I haven’t slept in days, then all bets are off), but I see spheres, like bubbles, when looking up at a sunny sky.
A little more about me:
genderqueerish afab (I’m the opposite of strongly attached to my gender)
Born in 1987
Traits I have: analytical, careful, dialectic-thinker, empathetic, good-humoured, loving, open-minded, quiet & loud, stubborn, zippy then zonked.
Hobbies: Drawing, cooking, gaming (video & table-top), learning, linguistics, reading, researching, scribbling notes to myself, sky-gazing, thinking, walking, yacking on and on…
Views: I’m an evidentialist, and could also be described as a ‘secular humanist’, my political views are those of a Canadian “leftist”. (Note on politics: I would like an instant runoff system rather than our ridiculous first past the post system. Also I would like more direct democracy.)
I’m still pretty much a laymen when it comes to most things, but I enjoy learning, and am getting more proficient all the time.